So, it's finally here! We made it! It's our 1 year anniversary of the launch of the greatest website known to earth! BadGirlJones.com is officially ONE YEAR OLD!!!!! I can't believe the success of this site so far! It was slow growing at first, but I have such an amazing group of loyal buddies on here that it quickly exceeded my expectations! Many of you very much helped it move along by relentlessly promoting BGJ.com! I can't thank ya'all enough! It's truly been a team effort! There aren't enough words of gratitude in the English language to fully show my appreciation for all that y'all have done for me and for BGJ.com! This whole month, I've cried tears of joy regularly (about once a week) over the patience, appreciation & loyalty you have all shown me this year for BGJ.com, and for many of you, over the past decade in general!
Yep, that's right... one whole decade! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! Wow, time really does fly when you're having fun! I've been doing the same thing, with the same exact look for 10 whole years and y'all aren't tired of me yet????????? I must be the luckiest girl in the world! Damn near close, if not numero uno! Maybe a tie? Yet I can't even come up with one other person who has it better than me. I really can't. I would change lives with no one.
Now, everyone knows I'm a huge advocate for lesbian porn being seen as 'real porn'. When I started, we had 1 award that was all ours at the award shows. One! I went half of my career, begging the award shows to notice us; to give us the recognition we deserve. And now we finally have our own POTY award, as well as several others. But everyone knows I still get a little agitated when people try to tell me "oh you should be PROUD that you've never taken dick on camera..". To be quite frank, this pisses me off to no end because lesbian porn IS STILL PORN. I'm still swallowing the cum of a stranger who I only know by a fictitious name. I'm still judged by a huge portion of the country/world. I'm still disrespected on the regular from every 3rd random person who thinks my job isn't a 'real job' or is 'degrading'. My knees still cry at night. I still wear the permanent Scarlet P. I still cringe at the thought of my baby nephews growing up in a world where people pick on them because they are related to a sex worker. But I do it because I love it. No matter what, through all the ups and downs in 10yrs, it's still so worth it!
I will be the first to admit that I prefer working with girls who do b/g over girls who only do g/g. Simply because they dive straight in. Face first into my vagina; it's so hot. And honestly, they just eat better pussy in general. I'm not saying I don't like working with g/g only girls or that this is the case every single time (definitely not).. I'm just saying, in 10yrs, my experience is that the b/g girls do it better. And they are more relaxed about sex, for the most part.
ALL of that being said, I would like to point out one thing that does make me proud to still be a lesbian only performer. It has nothing to do with dick. Literally, not one thing to do with dick. It has to do with the fact that 10yrs ago, when I started this venture, anyone and everyone kept telling me that this here that I'm living daily couldn't be done. I heard it all... "You won't be able to make a career out of only g/g", "You will need to start b/g eventually in order to pay the bills", "You don't honestly think you'll be able to continue working forever only doing g/g, right?", and my personal favorite "I can't wait until you start doing b/g and we can REALLY get off to you".
The bottom line being that half of all directors and photographers I'd shot for in the beginning were completely under the assumption that it just couldn't be done, was fuel to my will. Call me a Rebel, but it definitely changed my priorities. When I first started, I started out slow but it was a career move. It wasn't because I was afraid or a prude.. far from it! I had goals... dreams! I wanted to extend my career for as long as I could. Then, at a certain point I realized that I'd been told so many times what I HAD to do because what I WAS doing wasn't gonna work. I lost all interest in doing b/g and g/g became my entire world. I started really putting my soul into my lesbian scenes. I had a new purpose, as well as, something to prove. It's almost like I felt lesbian porn needed a hero. I needed to be the lesbian porno Barbara Palmer. Or better yet, Mary Wollstonecraft. I wanted nothing more than to show it can be done; and SHOULD be. I was the girl's girl. I am the woman's woman. I need no penis to make me desirable and worthy.
Anyway... All I'm saying is that I am so belated to have accomplished so many things recently. The end of this year & beginning of the new one has been and is such a time for celebration! So many amazing things happening in the world of the Bad Girl. I'm living a dream. I wake up every morning still confused that this crazy amazing world is actually my reality. I'm really living this. And I couldn't have done any of it without y'all!!!! So Thank You!!! I can't wait for 10 more years of this incredible feeling.
I remember late nights, or rather early mornings, at Fort Grant; trying to keep all the boys hushed while you got off the phone with Daddy. Your voice changing slightly to appease him just enough so you could carry on in our debauchery. Our favorite sins. Those memories will never fade. I had no problem sharing you because I knew he was just your toy. Another 19yr old ploy. A means to an end. A temporary high. An angel in disguise.
Your hand touches my breast and it's so warm. You're reaching across me to put my seat belt on. We are on our way to our first rave. New Years Eve. I might never get that song out of my head. It had already been a year and some change since our first date, and I knew where my heart was... And yours.
Your lips were the softest I'd ever felt and in that moment I realized they were the only lips I'd ever need. I was standing on the table for the company I was signing for at AVN/AEE and you were on break from your own. You pushed and shoved through the gigantic crowd and walked right up to me, tapped my boot and gave me the 'come hither' finger. I leaned down, took a knee and you completed my whole world. Right there in front of that whole perverted and beloved crowd. I was instantly on my knees for you. You kissed me and I knew. They knew; Everyone knew.
When you're crying and he just walks by, I'm the one there to comfort you. When I'm lost and wonder what's next or better yet 'why', you are there. It's a give and take that I couldn't be prouder to be a part of; couldn't be happier that it exists. The entire world can see everything we are doing and every inch of us, ta boot -- and we live for it. I Love it.
I'm so emotional yet I can't even cry. So much has happened. But it doesn't change a thing. It won't be long until you're gone. And when you are, it still doesn't matter. They say everything happens for a reason.. and well, I never believed it. Until now.
It's been a while since I've posted a blog! Y'all will have to forgive me.. Every time I sit down to write, I either get started on something I think isn't blog worthy and then never finish it or I just can't seem to get started. I've had writer's block for a while now (or my own version of such). Sometimes it's really hard to find inspiration or even enough (self)trust. This is the internet, after-all... I mean, I know it's not like thoughts I've typed are naked pictures or anything ;). It's just hard to find a perfect balance of candidness and preservation with a splash of culpability. I used to be such an avid blogger. I would write/post all the time. I haven't felt inspired since my Xanga was deleted :(! Actually, the more I think about it, that's exactly where this story begins...
Once upon a time, I was a lonely, little girl in Arkansas and the internet was this amazing tool I could use to express my juvenile emotion. Coming of age, I was a dancer and a camp counselor when one summer someone mentioned 'LiveJournal' to me. I thought to my 13yr-old-self "I love journals! I have many! What could make them better?". Little did I know!!!! Fast forward a few years later, I've got a LiveJournal, a Xanga and a budding Porn Career. Before we got to this point, I would often post lengthy blogs about all kinds of good stuff!! Sex, Drugs, Religion and life in the age of the beginning of social media. Every word was so dire. Every dripping word.
I would post long entries about me doing naughty things and my natural reaction to such; sometimes even pics, ta boot! There was so much passion in those posts. I wanted the world to know who I was and what I was all about. I needed y'all to know. I needed y'all to know I was here; I was your lover from a distance. A young girl from the middle of the Bible Belt who needed the world to know I was here for your entertainment. I was born that way. It was my nature.
Feeling like such a grown woman with my independent spirit, fast-spreading hips and a unquenchable rhythm, I was dying to dance on every one of you. I would fall in love with the thought of you falling in love with me almost every day. The undeniable euphoria of an epic, once-in-a-lifetime, fast-paced lust. And the more this Jack Daniels settles in my blood and the longer this playlist shuffles, I'm realizing that's still the same. I still NEED to dance with every one of you. It's still my nature.
Now I'm 28, have had a video rated all-time #1 on all the porn tube sites for 6 years straight, and can't seem to squeeze a blog out to save my life. I've started typing all kinds of stuff about the good old days. At least 4 different entries I've started are memories of me and Faye and I'm pretty positive the next update will be one of them. A really, really good friend told me recently that there's no point in not posting those/hiding from them. They are me. They are STIll a very important part of this whole story and so y'all need to know them.
So be it...
Having a personal website is so much more to me than just another way to make money, or to get my face out there. It's a way for me to be able to connect with you, my friend in the sexual cyber epicenter that is the internet, in a way that is raw, real and untainted by what the rest of the world wants. Rather, what they think they want. Here at badgirljones.com, what you see is what you get! No tricks, fluff, silicone, acrylic, labels, stigmas, or agendas!!! All input is accepted! I want to hear from you. I want to know what makes you tick! (And cum! ;P)
I know we've only begun but I already have so many amazing ideas for badass, sexy escapades. I have many different stories laid out in my head with many different amazing beauties that create scorching encounters. I even have a couple of different surprises in store; landmark dates and events that are coming up as a token of my appreciation for being a member of badgirljones.com. This is a dream come true for me! I hope the feeling is mutual ;)
For those of you who do not already know, I have a fan mailing address! I love getting gifts of all kinds (ie; homemade, fanart), as well as sexy little things you would like to see me in on badgirljones.com, and most of all, I absolutely love receiving notes and letters!
My fan mail address is:
1705 Pico Blvd #38
Santa Monica, CA 90405
Don't forget, I also still shoot custom videos if you desire something specific, or maybe something that is all your own and no one else's.. ;) Skype dates are fun, too! And coming pretty soon, I will be auctioning off worn panties and socks from badgirljones.com photoshoots!
Don't be shy to comment and rate freely around on the videos and photosets, too! I know it's all so new still but it needs to be broken in right by the amazing crew that is #TeamGJ! When we feed something with our creative juices, it only makes it stronger! I love the support that ya'll give me. I feel so blessed everyday! I know there's a part of me that will always be right here!So, I'm signing off for now, but raise your next glass high in a toast for badgirljones.com, rambling GJ blog posts, and many more of all to come in a speedily (dare I say, habitual?) fashion... ;D